Thursday, April 17, 2014

What if...

My back has been hurting from a compressed fracture (caused by a metastasis) even after radiation treatment. I've been debating whether to get a procedure called kyphoplasty, which involves injecting bone cement into the vertebrae for stabilization and possible pain management. Surgery is never the optimal choice for me, even if it's minimally invasive. It's times like these that sometimes makes me wonder - What if I didn't have cancer. In my mind, I would have a brighter, happier, more active, pain-free life with unlimited potential. Alas, if only that could become reality. I have to admit that it's somewhat depressing to think about what I can't have. Perhaps it's better to think - What if I didn't even catch this cancer. Maybe everyday after I have been diagnosed is a bonus. And I hope the bonuses keep coming.